On a bright winter day I awoke next to Molly as I heard her say "Thank the heavens above, are you ready, my love? The baby's on her way." As I wiped the sleep from my eye I turned to my Molly and I realized That the love of my life, my beautiful wife Was far more ready than I On the day my daughter came into the world Could you trade one life for another? A husband and wife, now father and mother Would I be prepared? I was terribly scared On the day my daughter came into the world As we raced out the door My arms around Molly, I hugged her once more To the doctor we went, and I learned what it meant To be nervous like never before Could you trade one life for another? Would I be a good enough man for my child and my lover? A responsibility, it had fallen to me On the day my daughter came into the world The next thing happened so fast I heard cries from my Molly as the nurse ran past Though the room became quiet, they wouldn't let me inside it But then the doctor came out at last As soon as I saw him I knew Something happened to Molly, and she might not pull through and the chances were slight that they could both be alright Then he asked what I wanted to do Could you trade one life for another? I faced a choice no one should, that stayed with me for good On the day my daughter came into the world I can't believe how quickly she's grown All her friends have mommies that treat her like their own But someday she'll be old enough to ask me About her mommy, my Molly, that she's never known Will she see me cry Or will she read blame in my eye Or will I find a way to make it okay And have the strength to tell her who died On the day our daughter came into the world For a moment we were a family of three On a bright winter's day

Soon you'll be gone And I'll never see you again I've just brought you into this world But you'll never be mine Soon you'll be gone And I don't know what they will say But they didn't take you I gave you away They will say that I l oved you But we'll never know Cause it's too hard to hold you I will just watch you go And then you'll be gone And I'll just be left with the dreams Graduations and Weddings That I'll never see They will say that I loved you But we'll never know Cause it's too hard to hold you i will just watch you go And then you'll be gone And I'll never see you again I've just brought you into this world And I guess that's the end I've just brought you into this world And that's the end

The pains have just begun But we're prepared, expecting all goes naturally Upon first light, the babe to breast She'll stay with us for all the rest No nursery All together as it's meant to be And then when doctors done Back home to where our family future feels so bright We'll live to give a strong attachment All life long without a catch But on first light We find out that there's something not right Will it be okay? It's not up to me Not anything to do or say Will it be alright? Can't will it to be Want all my fears to take their flight To stop, to end Will it ever be okay again? Arriving, all seems fine Nine months, no complications through this very day The sweat, the pain, through all the hours The triumph that will prove your powers But now you pray One quick touch, then they took her away It wasn't your design A newborn and her parents in two separate rooms The bonding never comes to pass She crying trapped behind the glass You're helpless, too Their machines hold her instead of you Will it be okay? It's not up to me Not anything to do or say Will it be alright? Can't will it to be Want all my fears to take their flight To stop, to end Will it ever be okay again? Back home they finally come But they don't feel a family yet, they self-condemn Mistakes are made, they're sad and rough They wonder if they love enough Just what's the stem? Is it what happened, or is it them? They wish that they were numb Attached to expectations, they can never win Perhaps if they can just let go Accepting that they'll never know What could have been Maybe finally their love could begin Will it be okay? It's all up to me In everything I do and say Will it be alright? Must will it to be Just stop my putting up a fight I've got to bend Or I'll never be okay again The pains have just begun...

Seems I'm waiting for a lifetime, For my lifetime just to start; Every day I hear the rhythm, Of the beating of your heart. I'm still growing for a while, But one day I'll see your face; You'll look down at me and smile, As I rest in your embrace. But wait, what's happening? Something isn't right! My feet are being pulled roughly toward the light, And I'm not ready yet to go. I guess that this is how its gonna be, I'll die alone. Will you cry with me? I guess that I will never know... But will you miss me when I'm gone? Will you miss me when I'm gone? Will you miss me when I'm gone? Maybe I'd have been an artist, Or an astronaut in space; Could have even been the president, Now I have no dreams to chase. Cause I'll never see a sunrise, And I'll never smell a rose; I will never hear a symphony, Or get to play in winter snows. So many friends I'll never know, So many sights I'll never see, So many hopes I haven't hoped yet, So many things I'll never be. But will you miss me when I'm gone? Will you miss me when I'm gone? Will you miss me when I'm gone? Do you miss me now I'm gone?

(Ex astris, scientia) [1] God!! No!! Why?!? Father Loyola: [2] If you knew what we know now, What would you think? Would your faith still be strong, Where mine is failing? (Deus tecum) [3] We found it. The Vault. They made sure that we would. On the one seared planet That survived. (Deo gratias) [4] No one thought we’d find a planet . . . A small, scorched planet In distant orbit ‘Round the small White Dwarf star Left behind. (Deo gratias) [4] It survived the supernova. They knew the end was coming. And ev’rything they treasured, They sent here. So we’d know who they were . . . (Deo gratias) [4] They left their art. They left their sculpture. They left pictures and movies, Recordings and texts. With players and guides And instructions. So we know who they are. We know who they were . . . (Requiescant in pace) [5] We saw their lives. We saw their cities. Saw them working and playing And living and loving. They almost looked human. And I cannot forget . . . (Pax tecum) [6] A scene Of children Playing in the waves; Running down a beach Of strange blue sand. And there -- Sinking down behind them, Casting warm reflections, Sets the sun . . . The sun . . . (Pax tecum) [6] That will end them . . . (Deus tecum) [7] That destroyed them . . . (Pax vobiscum) [8] And we now know when . . . (Ex astris, scientia) [9] God!! There were so many stars... So many stars You could choose. (Sic transit gloria mundi) [10] So why use This star? Why give this world To the fire? (Ad maiorem Dei gloriam) [11] Just so this star’s light Would shine down over Bethlehem? ------------------------------------------------------------ [1] “From the stars, knowledge.” [2] (Founder of the Jesuit order) [3] “May God be with you” [4] “Thanks be to God” [5] “May they rest in peace” [6] “Peace be with you” [7] “May God be with you” [8] “Peace be with you all” [9] “From the stars, knowledge” [10] “So passes away the glory of the world” [11] “For the greater glory of God” (Jesuit motto)

you take a first breath i think my heart skipped a beat in my chest and i can’t breathe, don’t want to believe this is as good as it’s gonna get lean down to kiss your forehead I can feel your beating heart bad things happen to everyone and you’re getting a head start I was ready to go, you caught me at a bad time can’t help but feel somebody’s taking what is mine please take care of her for me and please, take care your mother’s smiling and I’ll try not to see the tears in the dimming flourescent light i can’t feel a drop of fear i can’t quite find my voice when she whispers she can’t lose me but my dear, no daughter’s raised on photos and home movies when she murmurs our names i can barely turn my head we started this together now i’m dying to know what’s next please take care of her for me and please, take care please take care of her for me cause I won’t be there cause I won’t be there the last nine months i’ve wanted nothing more: to shake hands with an angel in a revolving door i’m glad i got a chance to see her before time goes so fast, could I have a bit more? the last nine months i’ve wanted nothing more: to shake hands with an angel in a revolving door i’m glad i got a chance to see her before time goes so fast, could I have a bit more? time goes so fast…. could I have a bit more? time goes so fast….. could I have a bit more? please take care of her for me and please, take care please take care of her for me cause I won’t be there. cause I won’t be there. so please, please take care cause I won’t be there

I wasn't sure how I should feel When they brought my baby girl to me She seemed so helpless and so small A tiny bundle lying there The answer to our hopes and prayers A miracle that she was here at all She seemed almost weightless As I took her in my arms The blessing we had waited for so long I guess I shouldn't be surprised To see she has her mother's eyes The family resemblance is so strong Her mother did her very best To prepare for our precious guest Anticipating it would be worthwhile Learned nursery rhymes and lullabies Adorned the crib with butterflies Read every book on how to raise a child Now it seems so surreal That just a few short hours ago I sat and held her hand in mine And as her life's blood ebbed away The final words she had to say Were "promise me you'll raise our daughter well" Now she and I are going home Without the mother that she'll never know One who loved her more than life itself And though I'm now a single dad I'm reminded of what I once had When I see she has her mother's eyes

Our world turned to gold At the touch of your hand Washed over with something That we’ll never understand We tucked you in tightly, So fragile, so new, He gave a little sigh, and said, “It had to be you.” We’d read all the books We knew what to expect You made us feel perfect You were ours to protect We turned out the light As your room faded blue I saw you in his eyes, and thought, “It had to be you.” It had to be you. Maybe you saw my heart break And you’ll let me sing you awake If that falls through, Just know this is true: For us, it had to be you He put those worries Inside of my head We checked you by the hour, Then by the minutes instead Above you the comets And rocketships flew I watched your last breath, and thought, “It had to be you.” It had to be you. Maybe you saw my heart break And you’ll let me sing you awake If that falls through, Just know this is true: For us, it had to be you It had to be you. The doctors assured me That we weren’t at fault, It happens sometimes, That they’d give us a call Maybe you saw my heart break And you’ll let me sing you awake If that falls through, Just know this is true: For us, it had to be you Our lives turned to gold At the touch of your hand Washed over with something That we’ll never understand

The moon is a lonely home No one's been here for three long years Three long years But now I'm seeing things A man walks by who looks just like me Just like me So welcome my friend Wherever you came from I can't tell If you're real or a dream So why don't you just shake my hand So you have a daughter And a wife who longs for you back on Earth Well I do, too But you know when they come for us Only one can go, one must stay One must stay We can't flip a coin For something like this we'd need a gun Cause to stay would be Like suicide of your sanity But your heart is the same It's in the same damn place Sounds a lot like mine as it beats away We were born as one man With memories of one mind You're the same as me I want to believe you When you say there's a way to get us home Get us home But the truth is much stranger And the suits on Earth don't want us to know But I know We were born as grown men Preserved in a tank beneath our feet And when one of us dies Another awakes and the cycle repeats But our hearts are the same They're just locked away Eternally far from our family And the tragedy of this grand charade our wife has been dead and her messages faked And our daughter has grown She never knew her father's face If you make it back Tell them what we know It will ease my weary mind and give me hope As I go As I go...

Father, its been many years since I was born When you said the world stopped spinning The first time you held me in your arms I couldn't understand I didn't know the world before Born on the last day of the war There was only time Father, now I hold my new born son My whole world is undone How you looked at me I understand Oh Father, I've never felt so close to you The sky swept clean, a brand new blue It took a child to make me a man But Father, we are not in a post-war The Third World War is at our door Will the world stop spinning? Will I see a blue sky again? Will my son have a future? Is there a future at all? Will all men cherish life as I do now? Learn to grow old and not apart? Set world to rights? Or will the bombs fall? Burn out the blue of the sky? Undo the lives of you and I? Is this the end of the world?

We’ve been waiting for a you for a long, long time. A smile like your father, eyes like mine. Dreaming of tiny baby toes, soft hair, soft skin, the scent of new beginnings. This is a promise to my son I love you and I always will until my days are done This is a promise to my son I love you No boy child can live, according to the king How could such a tiny child do anything? Prophesy filled his mind with fear Too much, too late he thinks it all is fated This is a promise to my son I love you and I always will until my days are done This is a promise to my son I love you The midwife says she knows how to keep you safe, She says it’s easier if I don’t see your face. My deepest fear is you will hate me for this, but if you live to hate me, That will mean you are alive This is a promise to my son I love you and I always will until my days are done This is a promise to my son I love you, I love you, I love you I love you, I love you, I love you (repeat to end) It’s time.

Meet me at the back of the alley, mr. x You know what it's for, but it's not for that Better make it fast ... think I paid enough for the Mercy killing. I changed my mind - I don't really wanna know how it's gonna go down I think maybe i'd like a lotta people around So gun me down ... ... in a crowd Then just fade out And i won't hear the sounds From your mercy killing When i decide that it's time I don't wanna hide I wanna do this right Remove the option And give someone else a try Why shouldn't i? I ....... Maybe i'll give a little signal if I panic If i'd like my dreams back Meet me at the back of the alley, mr. x You know what it's for This time it's for that Now i think that this time i might really Want .........

Best day ever Everybody says this ought to be The best day ever Behold a brand new baby boy for me A miracle for me She said they're over Ancient history, so long ago She swore they're over But wanting to believe don't make it so It don't make it so That's not my hair That's not my nose I don't have gills or scales, antennae Purple skin or sixteen toes His mother says he's got my double chin Ok, that's something I suppose But he doesn't have my eyes Not even close A flying saucer A contest lost before it had begun He owns a saucer And spare vacation home around the sun At Lagrange point number 1 Persuasive speaker Seducing governments around the globe Hypnotic speaker Enticing her that underneath his robe Is not just a probe That's not my hair That's not my nose He's got these backward-jointed elbows And his belly button glows His mother has the nerve to claim she thinks That he resembles me the most But he doesn't have my eyes Not even close He's waiting outside I'm in here where angels fear to tread I'm headed outside Gently kissing Khaghlalghah on the head A goodbye kiss on the head We pass each other I'm glaring at his stupid double chin We eye each other I step out of the life he's stepping in As a new life begins That's not my hair That's not my nose My teeth don't lengthen when I'm hungry Holy...what the hell are those His mother thinks that stuff that he exudes is cute It's really kind of gross And he doesn't have my eyes…

She has angel eyes You know, the kind that draw you in The deepest ocean blue And I realize As I look at her face and her careless grin She gets those things from you A year from now A year from then A cake of bittersweet I promise now, I will find a way To make this day a special day Just like the way I know you'd want it to be In the years ahead There will be things she's going to need to know I don't know what I'm going to do I always thought we'd see her Grow and love and someday wed I never thought it would be without you A year from now A year from then A cake of bittersweet I don't know how, but I will find a way To make this day A special day Just like the way I know you'd want it to be This day … Our Special Day … Just like we dreamed it would be

Clocks tick Steps trace Uncertain times Mouths move Hands brace Fear shoulders in Breath fast Muscles tight Pushing all my might I never knew That I could love somthing like you And I am inspired You set my heart on fire And I love you Newborn Danielle Daddies favorite name My last Gift here Hope it reaches him Miss you Want you Need you here again