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On a bright winter day
I awoke next to Molly as I heard her say
"Thank the heavens above, are you ready, my love?
The baby's on her way."
As I wiped the sleep from my eye
I turned to my Molly and I realized
That the love of my life, my beautiful wife
Was far more ready than I
On the day my daughter came into the world
Could you trade one life for another?
A husband and wife, now father and mother
Would I be prepared? I was terribly scared
On the day my daughter came into the world
As we raced out the door
My arms around Molly, I hugged her once more
To the doctor we went, and I learned what it meant
To be nervous like never before
Could you trade one life for another?
Would I be a good enough man for my child and my lover?
A responsibility, it had fallen to me
On the day my daughter came into the world
The next thing happened so fast
I heard cries from my Molly as the nurse ran past
Though the room became quiet, they wouldn't let me inside it
But then the doctor came out at last
As soon as I saw him I knew
Something happened to Molly, and she might not pull through
and the chances were slight that they could both be alright
Then he asked what I wanted to do
Could you trade one life for another?
I faced a choice no one should, that stayed with me for good
On the day my daughter came into the world
I can't believe how quickly she's grown
All her friends have mommies that treat her like their own
But someday she'll be old enough to ask me
About her mommy, my Molly, that she's never known
Will she see me cry
Or will she read blame in my eye
Or will I find a way to make it okay
And have the strength to tell her who died
On the day our daughter came into the world
For a moment we were a family of three
On a bright winter's day
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Soon you'll be gone
And I'll never see you again
I've just brought you into this world
But you'll never be mine
Soon you'll be gone
And I don't know what they will say
But they didn't take you
I gave you away
They will say that I l
oved you
But we'll never know
Cause it's too hard to hold you
I will just watch you go
And then you'll be gone
And I'll just be left with the dreams
Graduations and Weddings
That I'll never see
They will say that I loved you
But we'll never know
Cause it's too hard to hold you
i will just watch you go
And then you'll be gone
And I'll never see you again
I've just brought you into this world
And I guess that's the end
I've just brought you into this world
And that's the end
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The pains have just begun
But we're prepared, expecting all goes naturally
Upon first light, the babe to breast
She'll stay with us for all the rest
No nursery
All together as it's meant to be
And then when doctors done
Back home to where our family future feels so bright
We'll live to give a strong attachment
All life long without a catch
But on first light
We find out that there's something not right
Will it be okay?
It's not up to me
Not anything to do or say
Will it be alright?
Can't will it to be
Want all my fears to take their flight
To stop, to end
Will it ever be okay again?
Arriving, all seems fine
Nine months, no complications through this very day
The sweat, the pain, through all the hours
The triumph that will prove your powers
But now you pray
One quick touch, then they took her away
It wasn't your design
A newborn and her parents in two separate rooms
The bonding never comes to pass
She crying trapped behind the glass
You're helpless, too
Their machines hold her instead of you
Will it be okay?
It's not up to me
Not anything to do or say
Will it be alright?
Can't will it to be
Want all my fears to take their flight
To stop, to end
Will it ever be okay again?
Back home they finally come
But they don't feel a family yet, they self-condemn
Mistakes are made, they're sad and rough
They wonder if they love enough
Just what's the stem?
Is it what happened, or is it them?
They wish that they were numb
Attached to expectations, they can never win
Perhaps if they can just let go
Accepting that they'll never know
What could have been
Maybe finally their love could begin
Will it be okay?
It's all up to me
In everything I do and say
Will it be alright?
Must will it to be
Just stop my putting up a fight
I've got to bend
Or I'll never be okay again
The pains have just begun...
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Seems I'm waiting for a lifetime,
For my lifetime just to start;
Every day I hear the rhythm,
Of the beating of your heart.
I'm still growing for a while,
But one day I'll see your face;
You'll look down at me and smile,
As I rest in your embrace.
But wait, what's happening? Something isn't right!
My feet are being pulled roughly toward the light,
And I'm not ready yet to go.
I guess that this is how its gonna be,
I'll die alone. Will you cry with me?
I guess that I will never know...
But will you miss me when I'm gone?
Will you miss me when I'm gone?
Will you miss me when I'm gone?
Maybe I'd have been an artist,
Or an astronaut in space;
Could have even been the president,
Now I have no dreams to chase.
Cause I'll never see a sunrise,
And I'll never smell a rose;
I will never hear a symphony,
Or get to play in winter snows.
So many friends I'll never know,
So many sights I'll never see,
So many hopes I haven't hoped yet,
So many things I'll never be.
But will you miss me when I'm gone?
Will you miss me when I'm gone?
Will you miss me when I'm gone?
Do you miss me now I'm gone?
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Edric Haleen - The Star
03:48
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(Ex astris, scientia) [1]
God!! No!! Why?!?
Father Loyola: [2]
If you knew what we know now,
What would you think?
Would your faith still be strong,
Where mine is failing?
(Deus tecum) [3]
We found it.
The Vault.
They made sure that we would.
On the one seared planet
That survived.
(Deo gratias) [4]
No one thought we’d find a planet . . .
A small, scorched planet
In distant orbit
‘Round the small White Dwarf star
Left behind.
(Deo gratias) [4]
It survived the supernova.
They knew the end was coming.
And ev’rything they treasured,
They sent here.
So we’d know who they were . . .
(Deo gratias) [4]
They left their art.
They left their sculpture.
They left pictures and movies,
Recordings and texts.
With players and guides
And instructions.
So we know who they are.
We know who they were . . .
(Requiescant in pace) [5]
We saw their lives.
We saw their cities.
Saw them working and playing
And living and loving.
They almost looked human.
And I cannot forget . . .
(Pax tecum) [6]
A scene
Of children
Playing in the waves;
Running down a beach
Of strange blue sand.
And there --
Sinking down behind them,
Casting warm reflections,
Sets the sun . . .
The sun . . .
(Pax tecum) [6]
That will end them . . .
(Deus tecum) [7]
That destroyed them . . .
(Pax vobiscum) [8]
And we now know when . . .
(Ex astris, scientia) [9]
God!!
There were so many stars...
So many stars You could choose.
(Sic transit gloria mundi) [10]
So why use
This star?
Why give this world
To the fire?
(Ad maiorem Dei gloriam) [11]
Just so this star’s light
Would shine down over
Bethlehem?
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[1] “From the stars, knowledge.”
[2] (Founder of the Jesuit order)
[3] “May God be with you”
[4] “Thanks be to God”
[5] “May they rest in peace”
[6] “Peace be with you”
[7] “May God be with you”
[8] “Peace be with you all”
[9] “From the stars, knowledge”
[10] “So passes away the glory of the world”
[11] “For the greater glory of God” (Jesuit motto)
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you take a first breath
i think my heart skipped a beat in my chest
and i can’t breathe, don’t want to believe
this is as good as it’s gonna get
lean down to kiss your forehead
I can feel your beating heart
bad things happen to everyone
and you’re getting a head start
I was ready to go, you caught me at a bad time
can’t help but feel somebody’s taking what is mine
please take care of her for me
and please, take care
your mother’s smiling
and I’ll try not to see the tears
in the dimming flourescent light
i can’t feel a drop of fear
i can’t quite find my voice
when she whispers she can’t lose me
but my dear, no daughter’s raised
on photos and home movies
when she murmurs our names i can barely turn my head
we started this together now i’m dying to know what’s next
please take care of her for me
and please, take care
please take care of her for me
cause I won’t be there
cause I won’t be there
the last nine months i’ve wanted nothing more:
to shake hands with an angel in a revolving door
i’m glad i got a chance to see her before
time goes so fast, could I have a bit more?
the last nine months i’ve wanted nothing more:
to shake hands with an angel in a revolving door
i’m glad i got a chance to see her before
time goes so fast, could I have a bit more?
time goes so fast….
could I have a bit more?
time goes so fast…..
could I have a bit more?
please take care of her for me
and please, take care
please take care of her for me
cause I won’t be there.
cause I won’t be there.
so please, please take care
cause I won’t be there
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I wasn't sure how I should feel
When they brought my baby girl to me
She seemed so helpless and so small
A tiny bundle lying there
The answer to our hopes and prayers
A miracle that she was here at all
She seemed almost weightless
As I took her in my arms
The blessing we had waited for so long
I guess I shouldn't be surprised
To see she has her mother's eyes
The family resemblance is so strong
Her mother did her very best
To prepare for our precious guest
Anticipating it would be worthwhile
Learned nursery rhymes and lullabies
Adorned the crib with butterflies
Read every book on how to raise a child
Now it seems so surreal
That just a few short hours ago
I sat and held her hand in mine
And as her life's blood ebbed away
The final words she had to say
Were "promise me you'll raise our daughter well"
Now she and I are going home
Without the mother that she'll never know
One who loved her more than life itself
And though I'm now a single dad
I'm reminded of what I once had
When I see she has her mother's eyes
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Our world turned to gold
At the touch of your hand
Washed over with something
That we’ll never understand
We tucked you in tightly,
So fragile, so new,
He gave a little sigh, and said,
“It had to be you.”
We’d read all the books
We knew what to expect
You made us feel perfect
You were ours to protect
We turned out the light
As your room faded blue
I saw you in his eyes, and thought,
“It had to be you.”
It had to be you.
Maybe you saw my heart break
And you’ll let me sing you awake
If that falls through,
Just know this is true:
For us, it had to be you
He put those worries
Inside of my head
We checked you by the hour,
Then by the minutes instead
Above you the comets
And rocketships flew
I watched your last breath, and thought,
“It had to be you.”
It had to be you.
Maybe you saw my heart break
And you’ll let me sing you awake
If that falls through,
Just know this is true:
For us, it had to be you
It had to be you.
The doctors assured me
That we weren’t at fault,
It happens sometimes,
That they’d give us a call
Maybe you saw my heart break
And you’ll let me sing you awake
If that falls through,
Just know this is true:
For us, it had to be you
Our lives turned to gold
At the touch of your hand
Washed over with something
That we’ll never understand
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The moon is a lonely home
No one's been here for three long years
Three long years
But now I'm seeing things
A man walks by who looks just like me
Just like me
So welcome my friend
Wherever you came from I can't tell
If you're real or a dream
So why don't you just shake my hand
So you have a daughter
And a wife who longs for you back on Earth
Well I do, too
But you know when they come for us
Only one can go, one must stay
One must stay
We can't flip a coin
For something like this we'd need a gun
Cause to stay would be
Like suicide of your sanity
But your heart is the same
It's in the same damn place
Sounds a lot like mine as it beats away
We were born as one man
With memories of one mind
You're the same as me
I want to believe you
When you say there's a way to get us home
Get us home
But the truth is much stranger
And the suits on Earth don't want us to know
But I know
We were born as grown men
Preserved in a tank beneath our feet
And when one of us dies
Another awakes and the cycle repeats
But our hearts are the same
They're just locked away
Eternally far from our family
And the tragedy of this grand charade
our wife has been dead and her messages faked
And our daughter has grown
She never knew her father's face
If you make it back
Tell them what we know
It will ease my weary mind and give me hope
As I go
As I go...
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Father, its been many years since I was born
When you said the world stopped spinning
The first time you held me in your arms
I couldn't understand
I didn't know the world before
Born on the last day of the war
There was only time
Father, now I hold my new born son
My whole world is undone
How you looked at me I understand
Oh Father, I've never felt so close to you
The sky swept clean, a brand new blue
It took a child to make me a man
But Father, we are not in a post-war
The Third World War is at our door
Will the world stop spinning?
Will I see a blue sky again?
Will my son have a future?
Is there a future at all?
Will all men cherish life as I do now?
Learn to grow old and not apart?
Set world to rights?
Or will the bombs fall?
Burn out the blue of the sky?
Undo the lives of you and I?
Is this the end of the world?
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We’ve been waiting for a you for a long, long time.
A smile like your father, eyes like mine.
Dreaming of tiny baby toes,
soft hair, soft skin,
the scent of new beginnings.
This is a promise to my son
I love you and I always will until my days are done
This is a promise to my son
I love you
No boy child can live, according to the king
How could such a tiny child do anything?
Prophesy filled his mind with fear
Too much, too late
he thinks it all is fated
This is a promise to my son
I love you and I always will until my days are done
This is a promise to my son
I love you
The midwife says she knows how to keep you safe,
She says it’s easier if I don’t see your face.
My deepest fear is you will hate me for this,
but if you live to hate me,
That will mean you are alive
This is a promise to my son
I love you and I always will until my days are done
This is a promise to my son
I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you, I love you (repeat to end)
It’s time.
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Meet me at the back of the alley, mr. x
You know what it's for, but it's not for that
Better make it fast ... think I paid enough for the
Mercy killing.
I changed my mind -
I don't really wanna know how it's gonna go down
I think maybe i'd like a lotta people around
So gun me down ...
... in a crowd
Then just fade out
And i won't hear the sounds
From your mercy killing
When i decide that it's time
I don't wanna hide
I wanna do this right
Remove the option
And give someone else a try
Why shouldn't i?
I .......
Maybe i'll give a little signal if I panic
If i'd like my dreams back
Meet me at the back of the alley, mr. x
You know what it's for
This time it's for that
Now i think that this time i might really
Want .........
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Best day ever
Everybody says this ought to be
The best day ever
Behold a brand new baby boy for me
A miracle for me
She said they're over
Ancient history, so long ago
She swore they're over
But wanting to believe don't make it so
It don't make it so
That's not my hair
That's not my nose
I don't have gills or scales, antennae
Purple skin or sixteen toes
His mother says he's got my double chin
Ok, that's something I suppose
But he doesn't have my eyes
Not even close
A flying saucer
A contest lost before it had begun
He owns a saucer
And spare vacation home around the sun
At Lagrange point number 1
Persuasive speaker
Seducing governments around the globe
Hypnotic speaker
Enticing her that underneath his robe
Is not just a probe
That's not my hair
That's not my nose
He's got these backward-jointed elbows
And his belly button glows
His mother has the nerve to claim she thinks
That he resembles me the most
But he doesn't have my eyes
Not even close
He's waiting outside
I'm in here where angels fear to tread
I'm headed outside
Gently kissing Khaghlalghah on the head
A goodbye kiss on the head
We pass each other
I'm glaring at his stupid double chin
We eye each other
I step out of the life he's stepping in
As a new life begins
That's not my hair
That's not my nose
My teeth don't lengthen when I'm hungry
Holy...what the hell are those
His mother thinks that stuff that he exudes is cute
It's really kind of gross
And he doesn't have my eyes…
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She has angel eyes
You know, the kind that draw you in
The deepest ocean blue
And I realize
As I look at her face and her careless grin
She gets those things from you
A year from now
A year from then
A cake of bittersweet
I promise now, I will find a way
To make this day a special day
Just like the way I know you'd want it to be
In the years ahead
There will be things she's going to need to know
I don't know what I'm going to do
I always thought we'd see her
Grow and love and someday wed
I never thought it would be without you
A year from now
A year from then
A cake of bittersweet
I don't know how, but I will find a way
To make this day
A special day
Just like the way
I know you'd want it to be
This day …
Our Special Day …
Just like we dreamed it would be
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Clocks tick
Steps trace
Uncertain times
Mouths move
Hands brace
Fear shoulders in
Breath fast
Muscles tight
Pushing all my might
I never knew
That I could love somthing like you
And I am inspired
You set my heart on fire
And I love you
Newborn
Danielle
Daddies favorite name
My last
Gift here
Hope it reaches him
Miss you
Want you
Need you here again
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