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Jenny Katz - Clear
04:20
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The shapes of pain move across your face
like clouds in a stormy sky
the shadows shift and change
and gather in your eyes
they took you for a soldier
and taught you not to show
then, to simplify,
taught you not to even know
i would take it if i could
if you could hand the burden
I would take it, oh
i would be the wind
that blows the clouds for good
I would blow and blow
someday this storm is gonna pass
someday we’ll see clear sky at last
days you’d rather be alone
it’s so much work to smile
and yet your suffering calls to me
so i'll sit with you a while
until the sweetness of the drug
spills you into space
pills I fear yet
long to see relief upon your face
I would take it if i could
if you could hand the burden
I would take it, oh
i would be the wind
that blows the clouds for good
I would blow and blow
someday this storm is gonna pass
someday we’ll see clear sky at last
someday this storm is gonna pass
someday we’ll see clear sky at last
my own strong body
guilty in its ease
sometimes I'd trade it
for an hour of your peace
heartache’s more than just a 8x788 metaphor
it’s hard to get my chest to breathe
and now the nights come easier
there seems to be a change
though traitor hope has made us wary
a slow awakening
the smells of spring are in the air
hyacinth and wild cherry
and i would take it if i could
if you could hand the burden
I would take it, oh
i would be the wind
that blows the clouds for good
I would blow and blow
someday this storm is gonna pass
someday we’ll see clear sky at last
someday this storm is gonna pass
someday we’ll see clear sky at last
I think this storm is finally past
I think i see clear sky
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i pulled into town, first time around. i got the warmest of welcomes i'd found.
singing and palm leaves and donkeys to ride.
girl, you're a dangerous flirt. you tore my shirt, mentally broken - not physically hurt.
let's not pretend you've been crucified...
you don't know a thing about pain.
i entered the room, stuck to my tune... i did my best to be gracious and true.
guess you can't please everyone all the time.
escape from your ignorant bliss, i'll tell you this - quit judging books by their covers 'cause, miss,
you're only planting your own judas kiss.
you don't know a thing about pain.
these words are my cross, i'll pay the cost. hobble my legs and point me toward golgotha.
i'll stumble forth and take on your disease.
let's just bury this hatchet, by that knife in your back.
like the spear in my side, i hope that coat burns you bad.
you don't know a think about pain.
turn this thing into a real party, find some truth - write some scars on your body.
in the end, there're just two kinds of sinners.
ask yourself...will you be invited to heavenly dinner, girl?
may your father forgive you, for you don't know a thing about pain.
it is finished...
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Deep under the mountain in the dark and the cold
Sheltered from the wind and the rain
Sitting on a pile of silver and of gold
The mighty dragon is in pain
Maybe it is time to leave this cave behind
Time to get some fresh air
And it's raining blood on the town by the lake
Everybody screams, the children are crying
Nobody knows how long it's going to take
It looks as if the dragon is dying
Only the elders have seen this once before
Almost a century ago
They shut all the windows and they lock every door
Hiding in the cellars below
Maybe there's a chance to escape the burning flames
Maybe they will survive
And it's raining blood on the town by the lake
Everybody screams, the children are crying
Nobody knows how long it's going to take
It looks as if the dragon is dying
High above the lake the dragon's breathing fire
Feeling that the cycle is complete - once again
There's no way around it, no use in climbing higher
The time has come to bleed
Maybe it is time she should start to procreate
It sucks to menstruate
And it's raining blood on the town by the lake
In agony and pain the dragon is flying
Nobody knows how much more it's going to take
The dragon in the sky feels like dying
And it's raining blood on the town by the lake
Everybody screams, the children are crying
Nobody knows how long it's going to take
It looks as if the dragon is dying
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I never knew hearts
Could act’ally hurt.
I never knew loss
Could trigger the pain I feel.
You try to avoid.
You try to avert.
You try to convince yourself
That the pain’s not real.
I’ve tried to keep all my feelings at bay --
To put up a wall since you went away.
So why do I fall right back
Into missing you?
I don’t understand
Why you went away.
I don’t understand
What happened to change your mind.
But now you have thrown
Me back in the fray.
You took all my love
And left only pain behind . . .
It’s time for my heart to finally heal.
It’s time to take part in things that appeal.
It’s time that I start to try
And get over you . . .
I wanna go dancing.
I wanna go dancing.
I wanna get out on the floor
And not dwell any more
On the pain of missing you.
I wanna go dancing.
I wanna go dancing.
I wanna go dancing
To help get over you.
They tell you that wounds
Feel better with time.
They tell you your heart
Will heal when you just let go.
But how you broke up
With me was a crime.
And how someone gets
Beyond that I just don’t know.
I’m sick of regret and pain from the past.
I wanna forget those feelings at last.
I’ve gotta just let you go
And get over you . . .
I wanna go dancing.
I wanna go dancing.
I wanna get lost in the noise.
Be surrounded by boys
Who aren’t anything like you.
I wanna go dancing.
I wanna go dancing.
I wanna go dancing
Until I’m over you.
You said, “It’s all for the best.”
But tell the pain in my chest --
It doesn’t think that it’s true.
There’s no consoling a heart
That feels like tearing apart
Each time I start to remember you.
I tell myself to be strong --
To just keep moving along
While I regroup and rebuild.
But still, it feels like my soul
Has got this big, gaping hole
That may not ever be filled again.
Dancing.
I wanna go dancing.
I wanna get out of my brain
And escape from the pain
And move on -- find someone new . . .
I wanna go dancing.
I gotta go dancing.
I wanna get up and move on
‘Til the heartache is gone
And this agony is through.
I wanna go dancing.
I gotta go dancing.
I oughtta be dancing . . .
But I’m not over you.
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Might have slipped upon a bit of snow
Tripped and hurt my little toe
The way it throbs you wouldn't know how much
I had made an error trimming back
Wasn't careful, had a lack
Of patience leading to a crack
That's tender to the touch
Hangnail
Well it wasn't major isn't deep
The doctor's payment isn't steep
But how to fix it nothing leaps to mind
They say that you can only wait
And leave it to the feet of fate
And walk with a more careful gait next time
Hangnail
And some are plagued with migraines, a broken limb or three
But that pain's only theirs; mine's unique to me
Hangnail
I'm told in time the pain'll pass
Like liquid from a shattered glass
Until that point it's quite a hassle now
I could have put a bandage on
To help until the throbbing's gone
That row now seems a little long to plow
I know that someday it'll heal as good as it was new
But this is how I feel; 'til then there's sympathy I'm due:
"Hangnail!"
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I’m not a whiner
I’m not a shiner
And I’ve got religious belief
Behind a curtain
The future's uncertain
Lord I could use some relief
Lord, I could use a little relief
Lord, I could use a little relief
I'm not the man that I used to be
Consumed by a fire that no one can see
I feel it inside me, it cuts like a blade
As my life and my energy fade
And Lord, I could use a little relief
Lord, I could use a little relief
We pray for miracles
That sometimes don’t arrive
In time to save a single soul
I can't say I fear at all
I know I won't survive
But Lord, this takes a heavy toll
I hear the stories, I sing the blues
I listen to jazz, but I turn off the news
Kiss little babies, Stay true to my wife
And I've prayed to you, Lord, for all of my life
But Lord, I could use a little relief
Lord, I could use a little relief
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Like a knife in the back
the stabbing pain
from this attack
brings me to me knees
and I keep crying please
make the pain stop
make it stop
Every breath, the slightest shift
the knife twists deeper deeper
heading straight from my back to my heart
to my heart
And there is a ball of glass and razor blades which cuts as deep as any lovers lies
Blood and pain and where’s the meds?
What will make it stop?
Make it stop!
MAKE IT STOP!
Tough it out- don't complain
don't show weakness don't show pain
You're not allowed to show you're weak
You hurt so much you cannot speak
No one wants to hear you talk
No one gives a shit
And they will kick you when they see....
that you are down.
Don't let them know
Don't let them know
Don't let them know
Don't let them know
That you're in pain.
Don't let them know
don't let them know
dont let them know That you're in pain
pain
pain
pain
pain
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Stabbed in the back is a little bit literal for me
On the attack, I'm despicable; a criminal, oh, can't you see
Payment enclosed, there's no time to think about morality
I'm not predisposed to particular congeniality
But when I think of you
And I think of you a lot
I feel it's too bad
You're the one that's gotta get got
I would apologize
If it would change a thing
Just close your eyes
Cause this is gonna sting
I'd try to flirt
Cause you're really rather hot
But this is gonna hurt
A lot
Day after day, this is how I live, it's all I've ever known
Not much to say, but I guess that's cause I'm always on my own
We can have fun, pretending that I know my right from wrong
We can try to run, but I'd probably sell you out before too long
But when I think of you
And that's really quite a lot
I feel it's rather bad
You're the one that's gotta get got
I would apologize
If it would change a thing
Just close your eyes
Cause this is gonna sting
I'd try to flirt
But I'd really rather not
Cause this is gonna hurt
A lot
All the blood pouring out doesn't really make for a nice gift
Like a rorschach test of my heart while my mind is adrift
What I don't understand is this feeling that I get from having it done
Cause I thought I would feel nothing; I guess my conscience has won
I would apologize
If it could change a thing
Just open up your eyes
And we all can sing
I guess I was kind of curt
Cause I never really thought
That this was gonna hurt
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had visions of a poem
a story and a song
hired a skywriter
to tell you, you're the one
I thought about a meal
baked alaska after wine
a blink up in the sky
a star or satellite?
It doesn't matter
nothings changed
havent left my bed...
back pain
I dreamt about our bikes
we were on that romantic path
the one covered by trees
that arch across and back
I made a funny joke
when we stopped to feed the ducks
I used the word "bill"
anatomy or spending bucks
it doesnt matter
i need to stay
in my bed...
back pain
bridge?
it stresses me out
i cant enjoy a song
i shouldnt judge others
when my back feels so wrong
You're god damn grammar
so much incorrect use
I learned English in school
what's your excuse?
I helped give the boot
to jailhouse payback
their song was lacking
it made me sad
but when i laid down
i realized i was wrong
my back pain had stopped me
from appreciating their song
and now I'll burn
will it be cold or flame?
either way I'll descend...
with back pain.
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The forest catches fire and the weakest tree is dying
The smoke is my eyes and it hurts when I start crying
I want to put it out, but they say to let it burn.
I want to let it live, but they say it’s now my turn.
It’s hard enough to watch it all go
It’s harder when you ask me to grow
They say you can’t have change without pain
But you never know
The field’s clearing out, and there’s nothing left but ashes.
And every seedling grows with another that it clashes.
As tight as we compete there’s a lesson to be told,
It’s beautiful to see when the new replace the old.
It’s hard enough to watch it all go
It’s harder when you ask me to grow
They say you can’t have change without pain
But you never know
Although I’m young
I’m ready to be sung
As steady as the sun
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Is There a Doctor in the House?
When I was one I was just starting out
A teacher, a lord, a man with no doubt
I took family and friends on all of my travels
But finally time came I began to unravel
Chorus:
For a man such as me death is never forever
Once I'm ripped apart I get put back together
The pain wracks my body, yet always I find
I'm much more disturbed by the change to my mind
I then became two thanks to regeneration
A hobo, a sprite and the clown of a nation
Number three was a dandy, I have to admit
With collars and rufflles and trousers tight fit
When I was four I was blessed with a smile
Temper, a wit, a scarf long as a mile
Five, then, was calmer, more caring, sublime
When 'twas time to go, it "Feels different this time"
Chorus:
I feel the atoms of my body blown apart
But at least I met Napolean Bonaparte
I've met all the great men and it's hard to surprise me
If I meet them again they won't recognize me
Then I was six, I had gone quite insane
A riot of color from my clothes to my brain
When I was seven I was humble but clever
I thought that I could keep doing this forever
Bridge:
But then came eight, I was such a romantic
I loved my companions both placid and frantic
But one by one, we could travel no more
And finally alone, I succumbed then to war
Chorus:
For a man such as me death is never forever
Once I'm ripped apart I get put back together
I fought as a warrior and made sacrifices
Thought I was alone and left to my devices
When I was nine, I fought beings made of plastic
I Rose to the challenge and it was "fantastic"
It led me to ten, and eleven and more
And each time I thought that "I don't want to go"
And now I'm twelve, or is it thirteen?
The numbers get messed up, if you know what I mean.
I treat old age like another disease
It cures itself and then "Kidneys! I've got new kidneys!"
Chorus:
For a man such as me death is never forever
Once I'm ripped apart I get put back together
The pain wracks my body, yet always I find
I'm much more disturbed by the change to my mind
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CHORUS:
Hit me, hurt me, never desert me
When I'm hurtin' I'm certain that I live
Beat me, mistreat me, you really complete me
I'm in love with the pain that you give
The way you smack me feels so much like a kiss
When I get pummeled, I'm in such heavenly bliss
Why don't you hit me again, I can take a lot more
I haven't yet fallen down in a heap upon the floor
CHORUS
My only purpose in life is to accept your smacks, dear
And I'll never fend off your relentless attacks, dear
So wind up your arm, go ahead, do your worst
Don't even wait for me to regain my composure first
CHORUS
I know that your world is an extremely violent place
So just take out all of your anger right here on my face
Yes, when you need me, I'll be your launching pad
Because you're a boxer, and I'm a punching bag
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Verse:
My story goes...
Chorus:
I sat down to write and nothing came out
Not a melody, lyric, anecdote or shout
So I bit my pencil and as I lingered
I found myself chewing on my finger
I screamed in pain and before you know
I dropped the mike and had broken my toe
I clutched it in pain and slipped on the floor
And crashed my head right into the door
I stumbled back and slipped out the window
I thought my time on this Earth was through
Fell 20 feet, landed on my car
Crashed through the roof, landed on my guitar
It fell into gear and started to roll
I caromed down the street and slid onto the toll(way)
Went backwards through traffic and I couldn't steer
That stench from my pants was the smell of fear
I got sideswiped and fell in a ditch
Scrambled out of the back onto my trailer hitch
I slipped one more time and did a face plant
I was so angry I just started to rant
A trucker heard me and stopped his big rig
Offended by my raving and acting like a pig
He wound up his fist and gave me a shiner
And sat on my back like I was a recliner
I started to yell and he rolled off my back
Said he'd heard my songs and that I was a hack
I limped away, sat down on the floor
Didn't feel that I could take anymore
I held my head and started to cry
Why didn't this happen to some other guy?
But there's no reason for me to wail
It's all my fault 'cause of this shaggy dog tale
My tale of woe might not win any awards
That's what happens when you don't change your chords
My tale of woe might not win any awards
That's what happens when you don't change your chords
I guess I learned
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Put The Hammer Down
My man drove a truck all over the place
All the women loved his cheating face
Had a girl or two in every town
Said he just had to put the hammer down
It didn't take long till i'd had enough
But he just said, 'that's the price of love."
Well I don't love it, in fact I hate it
Better clean up his act, don't you think I rate it?
Gotta put the hammer down
He's workin' on a deadline
RPMs on the red line
Gotta put the hammer down
He don't get too much down time
Too many women on his mind
Gotta put the hammer down
(Where's he puttin' it down?)
Got tired of my man and his big ass hammer
Tired of excuses he used to yammer
But I gotta hammer all of my own
It's hard and thick and it's mighty strong
I'm gonna put that hammer down
Gonna pound it twice as hard
Into his his cheatin' heart
Gonna put that hammer down
Straight into his cheatin' head
Gonna pound him till he's dead
Gonna put that hammer down
(Gonna ease my pain)
bridge:
When all you've got is a hammer
Everything looks just like a nail
When all you've got is a broken heart
You gotta hit him twice as hard
I'm gonna put that hammer down
Gonna pound it twice as hard
Into his his cheatin' heart
Gonna put that hammer down
Straight into his cheatin' head
Gonna pound him till he's dead
Gonna put that hammer down
(Gonna ease my pain)
(Gonna ease my pain)
(Gonna ease my pain)
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WINDOW PAIN
I work my way each and every day
At a skyscraper downtown
My trade I ply up in the sky
Just washing windows down
Can't help but stare when I see her there
On floor number 53
I see in her things that never were
But does she even see me?
'Cause I am just a poor boy
With a squeegee in my hand
And she's a big executive
With power in this land
CHORUS:
The way I know I feel for you
I really can't explain
The glass that separates us two
Is just my window pain
I want to pass right through that glass
And start to melt her heart
The tragedy is her and me
So close but worlds apart
The other day she looked my way
I thought I caught her eye
But was her view directly through
Me and to the sky?
And after work, I saw her lurk
downstairs among the crowds
I said hello, she did, and so,
My head was in the clouds
CHORUS
Then it seemed I had a dream
The two of us alone
Her hand I'd hold on my scaffold
Her eyes like diamonds shone
I told her of my eternal love
She sighed and turned away
She loved a man, with lots of plans
It had to be this way
I made a stand, I took her hand
But then it slipped away
I tumbled down, I hit the ground
No one was there to pray
CHORUS
They found me dead, a broken head
There wasn't too much left
A homicide or suicide?
No one could make a guess
Was it all real? I won't reveal
Just how the story ends
But lets just say I'm on my way
To find some other friends
The way I know I felt for you
I just could not explain
My fall, my rise, my true demise
Was just my window pain
Was just my window pain
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I don't recall the sidewalk
The moonlight, the autumn
The leaves on the ground where I first heard your voice
I certainly do not recall
Your eyes empty and pale
I didn't stumble through small talk
Your hands locked in mine
the illusion of mutual choice
When all of it, just for a moment
Was feeling worthwhile
I surely remember you dying
Where else would you be if you stopped trying
Girl is a ghost
almost had her hands around my heart
I fall harder than most
We were so close but so far apart
I don't remember your neck
Or you falling tears
Or questions I answered you asked in the dark
I couldn't hear signals
That rang out loud and clear
I didn't overstep
Or over commit
Or try to twist gold
From a thread of emptiness
I've got nothing to learn
So much to be sorry for
It wasn't the ending that I would have chosen
But I cannot bleed but be abandoned and frozen
Girl is a ghost
And I miss her cold hands piercing my heart
If I'm tougher than most
Why am I taking myself apart
Girl is a ghost
And I miss the echoes of her songs
The pieces she carved away
Can only keep killing me for so long
I didn't regret coming in from the dark
Left your silhouette by a bench in the park
I can't remember when I could last breathe
I'm not starting to hate how I love you the most when you leave
girl is a ghost
she's got her cold, cold claws in my heart
girl is a ghost
and she's taking me apart
taking me
Cause and effect that I can't determine
My muscles are waking from beneath this burden
You won't let me sleep but you know I don't tire
I'll just step outside and into the fire
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When the clock goes off at ten til seven,
Mother Nature calls to me
Time to hit the bathroom
Gotta pee
And in this hour of darkness
I stumble, wishing I could see
I can't find the light switch
Gotta pee
Gotta pee, Gotta pee,
Gotta pee, Gotta pee,
I feel the pressure building
Gotta pee
And when the toilet's occupado
I think we can all agree
Painful is the waiting
Gotta pee
I may not last another minute
It may be the sink for me
These are new pajamas!
Gotta pee
Gotta pee, Gotta pee,
Gotta pee, Gotta pee,
I'm not going to make it,
Gotta pee
Gotta pee, Gotta pee,
Gotta pee, Gotta pee,
I can't communicate the
Urgency
Instrumental
Gotta pee, Gotta pee,
Gotta pee, Gotta pee,
I simply can't avoid
Necessity
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Spintown Middletown, Ohio
I used to run a songwriting contest called SpinTunes. Most of the material hosted on this account is a result of that contest. The rest is mostly Minecraft related songs.
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